Hello again friends!

Wow, it's really been a long time since I've posted here. I've been floating around and had some moments where I came close to making a new post, but obviously that never happened. Life has been busy, stressful, but the struggles have been worth it. About two weeks ago, I finished school, and I will be graduating in October. I started a new job last week; it's my first "big girl" job and I'm so far loving every minute of it. I've been in an absolutely amazing relationship for 7 months (to the day!) now. He has opened my eyes to a lot of things I only ever heard my family and friends talk about, and it's fascinating to finally be able to understand what they meant. I always felt like I was left behind in the dust from everybody else, but I have finally caught up and I feel like I'm in first place (so cheezy, ugh)! I've been learning so much since the last time I posted here, I think my brain is still trying to play catch up. As always, there's been ups and downs, but I've been lucky enough that there have been more ups!

Anyway, that's a very brief overview of what my life has consisted of for the past 9 months. Things have finally calmed down enough to where I want to start picking up some old hobbies again, such as writing on this blog! So here I am :) And, to kick it all off, I wanted to write a little bit about religion today. OH BOY SARAH, you're saying, THAT SEEMS TO BE A PRETTY HEFTY TOPIC FOR THE INTERNET, DON'T YOU THINK?

Eh, I say, learning about religion is what has inspired me to write today, so it is what it is.

I'm currently reading through a book called "A Geek in Japan" by, Hector Garcia. I bought this book at least a year ago, and while I initially skimmed through it, I'm only now taking the time to sit down and read through every page. One of the first things Hector writes about is the influence of religion on the Japanese way of life and cultural dynamic. Now, I've never been an especially religious person. Growing up, my parents took my brothers and I to a Lutheran church every Sunday. I was baptized, went to Sunday school, had a confirmation, and I went to church every Sunday up until I was about 14 or 15 years old. And while I love the life lessons that Christianity has to teach, once I got to an age where I started questioning my beliefs, I found I wasn't really sure whether or not I believed in a God (be it God, Buddha, Allah, Jehovah, etc.).

I got to the point in my life where I didn't really have a solid answer when people asked me what religion I practice. Sometimes, I'd say I was Lutheran, other times I'd admit I had no idea. Religion wasn't a main focus during my life then and it really hasn't been since. There have been instances where I want to believe in a God, especially when I've been going through harder times. I think it's natural for anyone to want someone to turn to, whether it be a tangible or spiritual being. I've never considered myself an atheist, I do believe in some sort of higher being(s), and if anything, now when people ask me what I am, I tell them I'm just a spiritualist. I suppose the official term would be "agnostic", but I feel uncomfortable being labeled as such. It doesn't feel right, I guess. I feel like there's too much skepticism and closed-mindedness involved with agnosticism. I prefer to think I'm currently open and learning about different religions to better understand what I believe in and what I'd ultimately like to believe in.

Buddhism, Shintoism, Confucianism, and other Eastern religions have always had an appeal for me since I was younger. I really like the fact that they're more focused on the current life we live and helping other people in order to obtain happiness for others and ourselves. While religions such as Christianity often focus on the afterlife and what happens after we pass on, many Eastern religions believe that we should work on the life we are currently living and doing what we can to make the most of our time in this life. And this, to me, is amazing. Maybe this is naive or lazy, but why should we focus on the afterlife? We don't know what's going to happen after we die, no one can say for sure. Yes, there are countless scriptures and books and bibles written who knows how long ago by authors we don't even know for sure existed that contain stories about what will happen to us when we die. Some of these stories are terrifying to me and make me wonder who in the world would want to believe in it. When they say "God-fearing Christians", I wonder, who would want to live their life in fear? I don't want to live my life thinking if I do or don't do something, I will be judged by God and go to hell if I don't believe in Him. What the hell (ha) is that? I mean, really.

Anyway, the culmination of this post leads to a blurb Hector wrote in his book about Shintoism, and I really think this encompasses what I personally believe in:

"Shintoism is a polytheistic religion that originated in Japan. Its thinking has thoroughly permeated Japanese society and is part and parcel of the Japanese mind. Life after death is not one of its concerns. Instead, it concentrates on seeking happiness in this life. There are no dogmas, there is no clearly defined way of praying, there is no spiritual leader or revered founder to emulate. It is perhaps more a philosophy or way of life than a religion. Shinto is a collection of methods and rituals to improve human relations and ensure that there are no problems in the coexistence of human beings and nature. Respect for the members of one's family is another of its key points.

According to Shinto, nature is sacred. When we are in contact with nature, we draw closer to the gods. In Japan, many trees are considered sacred and it is said a god lives inside them. Under these trees people often hang ema - wooden plaques with their wishes written on them for the god to make come true. If your wish is granted, you must return and hang another ema to show your gratitude to the tree god.

Another curious example of the influence of Shinto on the Japanese way of being is that things that belong to you partake of your spirit. When you give a present, you are giving a part of your spirit to the other person. That's why presents in Japan are so very important, even if they're small presents of no real value. This belief also has significance when you buy something secondhand. The Japanese are reluctant to purchase things that have belonged to someone else, maybe because the previous owner's spirit still lingers inside them. One of the advantages of this belief is that thefts in Japan are almost nonexistent: stealing something from someone would be like stealing part of their spirit."

This, to me, is completely fascinating. I cannot wait for the day I can travel to Japan and visit Shinto shrines and learn even more about this peaceful religion. I want to live my life according to where I am now, not where I will be after I die. I think respecting nature also goes hand in hand with this, seeing as Earth is where we are now - the trees, animals, plants, and water are all things that give our living bodies nourishment and ultimately lead to our well-being and happiness. Maybe there is a God up in the proverbial "there" that gave us all of these things, and I'll thank Him for it when or if I ever see Him, but for now I'm going to appreciate what is here and now, who I am and what I have. My family, my friends, or simply the air I'm currently breathing.

Anywho, I'm going to get off of my soapbox now. It was fun! Maybe I'll see you guys again next week or another year from now... who knows, I ain't gonna worry about no thang. 8D

Ciao for now,
Sarah

P.S. As always, all thoughts, speculations, and opinions are welcome here. If you don't agree with me, that's cool, we can still be bros even if we don't have the same beliefs. Each to their own! I'm always itching to learn more, so please share with me if you believe in something different :)

P.P.S. If you're interested in learning more about Japan's life and culture, I would definitely recommend the book I've referenced in this post, go buy it right meow! "A Geek In Japan" By, Hector Garcia

Sad I

Staying happy can be a struggle for me sometimes, just as I'm sure it is for many other people out there. Oftentimes, I get the impression that many people view me as being unemotional and detached because I don't normally share my sadness or anger in obvious, outward ways. It's easier for me to portray happiness because it seems to be the most natural emotion for me to express and the most contagious. I like making others happy, I really do. However, just as happiness is a contagious emotion, so is sadness and anger. And I always figure, why should I burden someone else with my sadness when it has nothing to do with them? I'm kind of a hypocrite that way because I often get frustrated with others when they hold in their sadness and refuse to let me share that burden in an attempt to ease their pain. I don't know, it's difficult sometimes. My sadness typically comes in stages. I can usually tell when it's starting to escalate, and I can keep it at bay by surrounding myself with people who make me laugh and help me put things into perspective. Although, as they say, the people you love the most can hurt you the worst. It's a pretty morose saying, but it can be surprising sometimes how much it's true. I think it hurts the worst because you don't expect those you love to do you any harm. And yes, it's usually never purposeful, but after the second or third time they hurt you, it's hard to know what to believe. 

I try not to be so sensitive about such things or take them to heart. My mom has a habit of taking things too personally sometimes, and I'm really self-conscious about it myself, but I guess some things just run in the genes. I know sensitivity and emotions shouldn't be considered a weakness, but there's just something inside of my head that associates them as such. I'm by no means a psychologist, but I think it's an insecurity of mine to be left open and vulnerable. I hate crying in front of people because then everybody crowds around me, asking me what's wrong, what they can do to make me feel better, etc. And while I wholeheartedly appreciate it, I hate it. If I cry, I do it on my own. I don't want anyone to see me like that because I think crying is stupid. Not crying in general, but MY crying is stupid. Even when I witnessed my grandpa having a heart attack and being put on a stretcher and rolled into an ambulance, I distinctly remember hating crying about it. Rationally, I know it was normal for me to cry, but there was just something in the back of my head telling me that no matter how many tears I shed, they could never bring him back.

Wow, this is getting awfully dark. I haven't recounted that story in a long time, and it just made me feel ten times worse than I did when I started writing this blog. Oh boy, I'm not very good at self-soothing, am I? Haha. ANYWAY. I have more papers to work on because it's final week. I just had to stop and write this because I was trying really hard to stay happy in spite of some frustrating things happening, but I'm not so sure if this was as much of a help as it was a hindrance. Errr... once this semester is over, I promise I'll come back here to try and lighten things up a little! I've been meaning to do some particular writing exercises in order to dispel some bad habits, and I fully intend to try them out here.

Sayonara for now minna-san,
Sarah

Sarah Spews Reviews: Mawaru Penguin Drum

And finally, my top favorite new summer anime is revealed!
!!SPOILER ALERT!!

Mawaru Penguin Drum - 8 episodes, still airing

~Quick Review~

Storyline: Unique, heart-wrenching, hilarious

Characters: Well-developed, lovable, cute, crazy

Animation: Unfailingly beautiful; however, uses a lot of stock footage

Music: Fun, upbeat; nothing special but gets you involved in the scene

Overall: Butt loads of crazy comedy, but also has a unique heart-wrenching story

Where do I even start... well, first off - I LOVE THIS ANIME. You know, it's a little unfair that I'm reviewing these shows before they've finished, let alone some have barely started (see: Blood C), but I believe that within the first couple of episodes, you should be able to have a pretty clear idea of whether or not you enjoy what you're watching. On that note, I have so far enjoyed every minute of every episode of Mawaru Penguin Drum (now to be referred to as MPD). It caught my attention within the first 10 minutes of the first episode, and has since then kept me captivated. 


MPD is a show centered around three siblings - there's the twins, Shoma (blue hair) and Kanba (red hair), and the youngest and only girl, Himari. All three of them live together in a cute little shack next to a playground. While their parents have shown up in some short flashbacks, it's still unclear where they are in present day. In the first episode, you learn that Himari has some sort of terminal disease, and a doctor tells Shoma and Kanba that she only has a few months to live. Despite being heartbroken by this news, the brothers do their best to go on living their lives with Himari as normal as possible. One day, the three of them visit an aquarium to see the penguins. Shoma and Himari go to the gift shop, where he ends up buying her a queen penguin hat. However, Himari soon collapses and later dies at the hospital. As the brothers mourn, they are surprised to see Himari suddenly spring back to life, wearing the aforementioned penguin hat. It turns out she is possessed by a spirit in the hat who has decided to extend her life in exchange for a device called the "penguin drum". While Himari is miraculously cured of her condition and returns to her normal state when the penguin hat is off, if she is not within close vicinity of the hat, she will die again.

Penguin Queen Himari!

Interesting, right? Anyway, the brothers are given the task to retrieve the penguin drum. If they fail to do so, then the spirit will permanently revoke Himari's life. It hasn't been made clear what the device looks like, but the penguin spirit tells the brothers that it may be in the possession of a girl named Ringo. From then on, you meet a multitude of fantastic characters and learn a little more about the relationships between the three siblings. There are many mysterious happenings that I can't wait to discover later on in the series. Kanba is the more serious and mysterious brother, as he oftentimes disappears without an explanation and he seems to have a closer connection with Himari and the penguin spirit as well.

Kanba and Penguin Queen Himari making a strange exchange...

Despite the serious undertones, the show is chock full of comedy. Every episode has made me laugh out loud, sometimes to the point of tears (see: episode 7, frog ritual). The stars who steal the show are a trio of little penguins who seem to act as guardians to the siblings. The siblings are the only people who can see these penguin spirits, and this leads to some hilarious antics. The penguins are always in the background, eating everyone's food or shoving their heads in girl's crotches. I'm always a sucker for perverted characters. If you think my patience for having to wait for Tiger & Bunny is short, then you have no idea what it's like for MPD. Especially since in the latest episode, the cliffhanger was HUGE and I literally screamed because now I have to wait an entire week to find out what happens. IT'S HORRIBLE I TELL YOU.




Wrapping up, this show has been amazing thus far. The storyline is completely unique, the characters are deep, both lovable and hateable, and just plain crazy. My ONLY complaint is that the animators use stock footage in each episode when Himari transforms into the penguin queen. It's very magical girl-esque, which I love, but the stock footage gets redundant after a while. Oh well, compared to how great the show is besides that, it's a small complaint. I urge you to watch this show NAO because I need more people to freak out about it with.


You can watch it for free here and let me know what you think!


I will DEFINITELY review this anime again once I've watched it in its entirety, so be sure you come back to hear what else I have to say!

Love&&peace,

Sarah

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Sarah Spews Reviews: Tiger & Bunny

!!SPOILER ALERT!!

Tiger & Bunny - 23 episodes, still airing

~Quick Review~

Storyline: Interesting, dramatic, and fun

Characters: Stereotypical hero-types but still fun to love

Animation: Great CG work, hand drawn stuff fluctuates from fluid to choppy

Music: Nothing spectacular but fits the show well

Overall: A great heroic show, especially if you like X-Men

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Tiger & Bunny was an anime I had decided to watch on a whim, and I'm really glad that I took a chance on it. I had started watching it when 19 episodes had already aired and I whipped through the episodes like a madwoman. It's a very fun show. You follow the heroic adventures of the Heroes, a group of people referred to as NEXT who all have special genetic abilities. They all use these abilities to save the citizens of Sternbild and stop criminals in their tracks. I think one of the things that makes this show unique is its blatant use of advertising. Each hero has a specially-made costume that has their sponsors' logos shamelessly plastered on it. While some might find it obnoxious, I personally find it hilarious because I've never seen such an unabashed use of advertising, and I give kudos to the production company for having the balls to be so bold. 

Anyway, the beginning of the show focuses on the Heroes chasing around criminals and saving the innocent in order to gain "hero points". Their activities are documented on the popular television program known as "Hero TV", which keeps track of these points in order to determine the "King of Heroes" in a yearly ranking. You meet the main character of the series, Kotetsu, otherwise known as Tiger. The oldest of the heroes and the most old-fashioned, Tiger doesn't care about collecting points, he only wants to save lives. He tries to come off as a cool guy, but most of the time he goofs up and ends up being ranked at the bottom. Then, the company he works for decides to bring in a new hero to keep things young and fresh, so they end up pairing Tiger with the newcomer. The new hero is Barnaby Brooks Jr., whom Kotetsu affectionately refers to as "Bunny". Bunny happens to have the same NEXT ability as Tiger - the use of super strength for only 5 minutes every hour. They're the only heroes who have this kind of restriction, and I think the time limit is a very interesting twist on the concept of super strength and hero powers in general. 

Barnaby Brooks Jr. ("Bunny") & Kotetsu Kasaragi ("Tiger")

Things between Kotetsu and Barnaby start off rocky because they have different ideas of what it means to be a hero, but after working on several cases together, they eventually become close friends. I don't want to give too much away, but further into the series, the story breaks off from the popularity contest and starts focusing on Bunny's past and his need for revenge (think Bruce Wayne kind of revenge). It gets pretty dramatic and Bunny actually becomes a little annoying. He gets very whiny and emo... he cries a lot and I feel like his entire personality from the beginning of the show is completely discarded. It was disappointing for me when he broke down because I really liked him from the get-go. It's like Spiderman 3 all over again... *shudder* Oh well, I guess given the circumstances, he's allowed a little bit of a break down. 

All in all, this show is well worth the watch. All of the characters are lovable and each of them get a chance to shine on their own throughout the series. Some of the twists and turns are predictable, but it's still just as fun to watch everything unfold.  I'm sad every time an episode ends and I have to wait an ENTIRE WEEK for the next one. Especially now that it's reaching its climax and almost every episode has had a cliffhanger these last couple of weeks. It's a good thing I'm starting school soon, so I have something to distract me from the wait!

The entire Heroes gang

I might review this again after I've watched it in its entirety, so make sure you come back soon!

You can also watch the show on Hulu here and let me know what YOU think!

Love&&peace,

Sarah

Sarah Spews Reviews: Blood C

Since that last post was a little depressing, I'm going to lighten things up here by reviewing some of the summer anime shows that I've been watching.

I'm going to start with my least favorite and work my way up to my top fav. I'm saving the best for last!

!!SPOILER ALERT!!

Blood C - 8 episodes, still airing

~Quick Review~

Storyline: Stale

Characters: Forgettable

Animation: Stiff

Music: Generic
Overall: Long, boring, and yet to get interesting

This show is a collaboration between CLAMP and Production IG, both of which are highly esteemed anime production companies. CLAMP has made several of my favorite anime such as Cardcaptor Sakura, Magic Knight Rayearth, and xxxHolic. Blood C is also a spin-off series of a previously popular anime show called Blood Plus.

I myself have never seen Blood Plus in its entirety, but I've heard only good things about it, and it was popular enough to air on Cartoon Network's Adult Swim and the Sci-Fi channel as well.

So, it's safe to say I had high expectations for this particular show. Now, only 8 episodes into it so far, I'm finding it hard to continue watching it. In the first episode, you meet the main character Saya. She is sweet, clumsy, incredibly dense, and everybody loves her. She lives with her father in a shrine located in a small bumpkin town. She has a strange daddy complex and she comes off almost obsessed with him, and it's a little creepy. She goes to a cafe down the road and gets her breakfast from the cafe's owner, who is also a close family friend. She sings a happy little song on her way to school and while she's in school, it seems like any other typical high school anime. At dusk, she goes home and her father tells her she is to use the family's katana in order to defeat a creature called an Elder Bairn. The monster is just chillin' in their backyard. She starts fighting it, gets cut up, and when everything seems to be lost, something triggers Saya to tap into her "demonic" persona. Her eyes turn red and she just goes to town on the monster. Of course, not letting the show's title down, there is plenty of blood spewing everywhere. Then, she leaves the bloody mess to sit there and heads back home to clean herself up. End episode.

That is how the first several episodes are formatted. Keep in mind, the fighting only occurs in the last 5 minutes of the show, so everything before that is a bunch of boring dialogue. There are a couple of glimpses into Saya's past, but other than that, nothing is explained. You don't know where the Elder Bairn's come from or even exactly what they are. You don't know how and why Saya came to fight them. While some things have begun to be revealed in later episodes, it's hardly anything to cling onto. There are a couple of characters that obviously have a bigger part to play, but they have yet to shine and so far they have only served to deliver Saya cryptic messages. In episode 7, things really started to kick off, and I was hopeful that the anime would become much more fast paced, but it wasn't so. I just finished watching ep. 8 and it was as slow as the beginning episodes. 

I think the most irritating thing I've come across so far in this series is that Saya waits to fight. For example, in the latest episode, an Elder Bairn attacks Saya's classmates. One of the girls actually first spots the monster when it's outside of the school, but Saya just chooses to stare at it like everybody else. Then, the monster climbs up the building and starts slewing Saya's classmates one by one. AND ALL SHE DOES IS STARE. Here she is, her katana in hand, one of her classmates about to be eaten by the monster, and she's just glaring at it from afar. WHAT THE HELL. Three of her classmates die horrible deaths before Saya finally decides to unsheathe her sword. Then she's all like, "I'M GOING TO PROTECT EVERYONE!" Um, it's a little late for that, honey.

Anyway, this show is pretty awful so far. The storyline has yet to get interesting. The only thing it has going for it are the action sequences and the bountiful amount of blood. I'm going to try and stick with it until the end because I owe CLAMP that much. 

I may review this again once I've watched it in its entirety.

You can also watch the anime here and decide for yourself!

Love&&peace,

Sarah


P.S. Happy September!

Where is the Love?

"Life is the Season to LOVE" By, oO-Rein-Oo

I joined a dating site on a whim the other day, and it got me to thinking about some things. 

The last guy I dated was indeed a new life experience. On our first [and last] date, everything seemed normal in the beginning. I met his adorable wiener dog named Charlie who was a puppy at the time and an instant melt factor (as in melting from the cuteness). Bringing along his wiener [dog] should have been my first hint that things could go awry. Anyway, we went to an animal shelter downtown and played with some dogs and cats. It was cute and fun, just as it sounds. After that, he took me to a little hole-in-the-wall Italian restaurant. It was very intimate and romantic, despite the fact that I don't like Italian food. 

Then, we went back to his place.

Here's where it gets good, right?

[Nope.]

[Wrong.]

[So wrong.]

It started off innocently enough. I met his roommate and we all played a fun game of cribbage, and then I learned some card tricks (don't ask me if I remember them). His roommate soon left us alone and my date and I watched some TV for a bit. We flirted and cuddled on the couch, and eventually he led me to his bedroom. I won't get into the details, but there was plenty of kissing and a slight disappearance of clothing.


This is where I'm going to be honest and open with you and share something I'm normally uncomfortable talking about with even my closest friends. It has a purpose with where I'm going with this post, I promise. 


Anyway, things obviously started getting heavy between us and I quickly put a halt to it. I used the excuse that I was on the rag (which I really was!), but I didn't immediately tell him the other reason I didn't want to go further. This had been the farthest I'd ever gone with a guy, so I was understandably nervous, shy, and awkward. He eventually noticed that something else was bothering me, so he asked me what was up. While I'm shy and generally difficult to open up, I am very honest when people push me and get me to talk. I told him that I was a virgin. Honestly, it was probably one of the most difficult things I had ever told someone. 


I was embarrassed about it. Here I was, a virgin at 22 years old, when most people lose their virginity when they're in high school. In hindsight, it's a pretty silly thing to get embarrassed about, but it's still something very important to me. Not so much my virginity, but the guys who I choose to have sex with. While it has nothing to do with religion or saving myself for marriage, I do believe in the notion of having sex with someone I love and care about. I dated plenty in high school, but all of the guys I dated were kind of awkward and shy like me, so nothing ever really happened because neither of us had the courage to start anything.


Yeah, I went to college but it was only a community college, and all I ever did was go to class, then immediately go home. I made some friends in classes but nothing that ever lasted. After that, I stopped going to school and worked full-time for a couple of years. In that time, I never came across any potential dating material, and now I'm finally going back to school this fall (cross your fingers and hope I find a brain surgeon!). Anyway, my point is that I've never been in a serious, adult relationship. And I feel that the longer I go without this and the older I get, the more inexperienced I feel and the more I'm going to close myself up and become an old crone with cats.


It's ridiculous, I know, but we all have our own irrational fears, right? This is just one of those things that's always nagging at me like an annoying subconscious. It doesn't help that today's media is chock full of casual sex (see: Sex and the City) and it's constantly taunting me.


Anyway, I got a little sidetracked. So, I told him that I was a virgin, and he said he was already aware. I guess the friend who had set us up filled him in. I was still embarrassed and I felt like I needed to explain myself to him. I told him that I had never been in love, and that my belief was that I would only have sex with guys I truly cared about. Otherwise, it's just meaningless, right? Maybe my sex drive isn't as potent as most people's, but meaningless sex is something I'm not interested in at all. Maybe I'll change my mind once my cherry is popped and I realize just how amazing sex is, but for now, I stand strong by my belief that you should "make love, not sex". Call me old fashioned, but that's just how I am.


After I told him all this, I felt like I had bared my soul to him. I had never told anyone this before and it's safe to say I was feeling very vulnerable. Without a second thought, he told me he didn't see it that way. He said he felt that if two people were attracted to each other, then they should explore one another, and obviously the best way to do that is through sex. He had a much more casual standpoint on it all, and I wouldn't have cared if it wasn't for the way he talked about it. He was very flippant with my beliefs. He disregarded them and treated me like I was crazy for not tapping into my carnal instincts sooner. He tried to start things up again, but I told him I didn't want to go any further. He didn't say anything and obviously wasn't listening to me, and I got a little scared he wouldn't stop despite my protests. I quickly feigned sleepiness and put myself back together before he could say anything, and I told him to take me home.


Despite our disagreement in the bedroom, I still liked the guy and hoped that maybe we could talk about it again, and I could become something more to him than just a lay (I know, almost impossible with men, right? :P). 


This is where things got surreal. So here he was, driving me home, and he says to me in the most casual manner (and ladies and gentlemen, these are EXACT WORDS), "So, fun car fact."


I looked at him expectantly, thinking he was going to say something funny.


He glances at me, then quickly turns his attention back to the road, "I've had two STDs."


Me: O_O.... [what do I say? How am I supposed to react to this?? HOW IS THIS A "FUN CAR FACT"?!!]


He then explained that he has had scabies (oh my god, bugs crawling around your skin DOWN THERE? Jesus.) and chlamydia (first mental image that came to me was a pair of clapping hands). I kid you not. This is a fictional story in all ways of the truth. At this point in the night (or early morning), I was a little hysterical with tiredness and the general happenings of the night. I don't remember exactly what I said after that, I think something along the lines of, "Oh okay". He did most of the talking, but at that point, I had no intentions of seeing him again.


We parted ways - him thinking he had a chance with me - me, just trying to get away as fast as possible. I felt a little mean and shallow for disregarding him because of his STDs, but that wasn't the only reason I was no longer interested in him. It was just the icing on top of the cake, the straw that broke the camel's back. I found out later through the friend that had set us up that apparently he had an addiction to sex and that he regularly scoured Craigslist, looking for ugly girls to have one-night stands with. Let's just say I'm really glad I got out of that while I did. He was definitely the total opposite of the kind of guy I needed to be with.


Anyway, I guess my whole point is that I'm sick of people throwing love around like it's just a word. Throwing their bodies around like they're just objects to bang against each other. I understand that's how society is and I always feel naive saying this, but whatever happened to LOVE?  

Now that I'm ending this, I don't think I really needed to get what I wanted to say off my chest. I hadn't originally intended to tell you this entire story, but I guess that's the way things turned out, ne? Now that you all have a basic understanding of my dating history and sex life (or lack thereof), I feel embarrassed again. 


LOVE&&peace,
Sarah

I'm Racist Because I Cosplay?!

Speaking of outlets, I came across something today that made me rage, so I made a video about it!

Check it out here: